not to be a stereotypic teenager but im so f*cking sad all the time. well, idk if sad is the best way to describe it, its just a feeling of just nothingness?? and hopelessness??? well what ever it is, I don’t f*cking like feeling it. after it got so bad and I was self harming every day for months my school found out about it and told my mum, the one person I especially didn’t want to know. the first thing she said was “wow this makes me look like a really shitty parent doesn’t it” and I wanted to kill my self right there. I made her so f*cking upset all for what?? bc I couldn’t handle being a teenager?? its now been like 3 years and I feel so f*cking guilty, like there are people in much worse positions than me and they are really happy?? I honestly feel fo f*cking ungrateful and as much as I try to just get over it I can’t. like my mums got enough on her plate already besides me f*cking moping about, crying all the f*cking time.