Sometimes I wonder what I would be like if I had a better relationship with my siblings. I’m at a point in my life where I basically hate my family and it makes me feel like a terrible person. All I want is to be noticed but they’re all to busy with stuff and they pay way more attention to my brother. I kinda hate my brother too. Everyone likes him and he gets so much attention. I can’t stand to be near him and I feel very bad about it. He’s homeschooled and is a very social person so when my other brother and I get home from school he’s always wanting to talk. My oldest brother is quiet and almost never talks and I like to be alone all the time. My brother that is homeschooled wants to be social and talk to someone and since my oldest brother never talks and I’m antisocial he has no one to talk to. For some reason he takes it out on me and I get in trouble and my parents make me come out of my room and talk to him and be social. I’m not social. I wish my family could just understand that.