It has been 5 months since we last spoke and yet the mere few days that we spent together still linger in my mind. I have recently made decisions to move on with my life that includes how I view my commitment towards my relationship. Today was the first time we had contact and I find myself unable to contain my joy and excitement. The fact that I can’t get you out of my head is driving my crazy, frustrated even as I have so many other matters in my life to attend to. A part of me do wonder if you share the same feelings but I have decided a while back as well that I will not react or carry on with any actions. I look forward to the day that you will just remain a part of a time where I had a good time with an individual or that if fate does allow, we are allowed to explore the connection we had, provided that this was not one-sided on my part. Till then, I guess I would need to live in this agony and eventually move on with my life. I just wished it wasn’t taking such a long time. You really have pulled my heart strings… and despite it all, a tiny part of me was happy that I did.