I’m a girl, 24.
There’s this girl that i’d met a while ago, worked on the same project for a few months, we fitted well together and everything was going smoothly, soon we became friends. We started hanging out after work, on weekends, eventually we end up spending most of our time with each other. We both felt an attraction between us early on, it was gradual and effortless so it wasn’t surprising for either of us that we’re now best friends.
About three months ago she had to move back to the city for work. Well I missed her…everything about her…very much. Now thinking about it, perhaps a little too much even for a best friend. Anyway, after she’d settled down she invited me to visit and hangout, she sounded weird over the phone but i didn’t think too much of it at the time. I went as soon as I can.
I arrived at noon she seemed happy, so I am too. She showed me around, introduced me some of her friends and spent some time together, it was good fun. But while all of that was happening, I realized something didn’t make sense, despite thinking it would go away naturally but actually being with her is making the feeling of missing her even more intense. So naturally I started to have a panic attack, she’d realized and we end up leaving the group early, apparently she thought that the shots we were having had hit me so we went home.
Back at her place, curling up in a small couch hugging a pillow somehow helps with the panicking, she asked me if i was okay, i weren’t talking much but i think i said “yeah”, she said “okay” then went away to who knows where. While she was doing that i manage to regain my composure by being a rational adult.
Two cups of tea. She went and made those.
“I missed you” she said with the smile that could let her get away with anything,
“I missed you” I replied chills down my back, heart out of my chest, feeling stupid for being dramatic.
We cuddled and watched tv and that was the first time in a while that i’d felt, lacking of a better term “safe”? i don’t know, it was like one of those moments that you’d want to last forever.
The show ends, we were so sleepy, she took the empty mugs walked to the kitchen and started washing them. As she left the room those intense feeling took over me once again thinking i was going to leave tomorrow, I went and hug her from behind, she feel so warm, her hair smells like cinnamon, I can hear her heart beating. She puts the mugs on the drying rack, it was so quite without the running water, she turns around and said “I wish you could stay for longer.” with that frickin smile.
I hesitated. I kissed her, stopped and lingered. She pulled me in and kisses me back slowly.
I hadn’t imagine this moment before, how her lips would feel, her reaction, the meaning of it, it was all too overwhelming for both of us but we continued as if nothing else mattered.
The morning after whatever happened, we sat in bed and talked for hours, we came to a unpleasant yet simple conclusion that being together now wouldn’t be any good for either of us. So that’s that. Oh did I mentioned somewhere along the line, my boyfriend of 4 years.
So for the past few weeks, whenever my boyfriend and i have sex, my brain would automatically think of her as i’m getting close and i would orgasm while picturing her orgasming. And that’s why i’m here. Well shit. I will now go rewatch all the past seasons of GOT and feel dead inside.