I am a really hard working girl. I get what I want with hard work. I can become successful with my hard work. But what I truly want is to become a housewife and look pretty… I see pretty girls without any ambitions, just getting married and living happily. I envy those girls, I don’t want to reach any heights in life, what I truly desire is to look pretty and get married. I look ugly…I cannot get a beautiful face with my hard work * crying *. I wish I could look pretty, soft and desirable, I wish I could make a Man go crazy with my smile. I really have an ugly smile, no man will ever fall for my smile, no man will ever dream about my smile. I will not be able melt my husbands heart with my beauty. The thing ” inner beauty ” is bullshit…everyone remembers us by our face and when its ugly, people don’t like us, no man falls for us. No matter where I’ll reach in life, there will always be an empty void in my heart…a void of desire to look pretty and get loved and this void will never be fulfilled.