Numb and helpless

I hate myself, and i cant do anything about it. I’m quite good at hiding my depression, but i blew my cover infront of my parents recently and had a breakdown, which led to mr telling them about my state of mind, but in response they just told me to “drop the act, it cant be that bad” and “stop being sad”. It would be really nice if i could just stop living.

One Reply to “Numb and helpless”

  1. Hi, I am sorry to hear that you are having a tough time. I am no expert in this, but based on what you have written here, it is understandable why your parents find it hard to believe that you have a depression considering that you have been hiding your depression so well. Just like most parents, they may not have adequate knowledge on depression and therefore not able to diagnose your issue well. You probably don’t like their responses, but when you broke down suddenly and revealed all these, they just don’t know how to react. They are probably emotionally frozen because they love you so much that they can’t accept that you maybe suffering from depression. They don’t want you to be going through this. They want you to be happy. They hope and want to believe that you are just having a bad day.

    I am not sure what can be done to make you feel better, but giving up is definitely not going to help you. I would recommend you to talk more with your family and share your feeling with them. Yes, I know you shared with them the last time, but if you can be a bit more patience, eventually your family will be able to understand the pain you are enduring. Alternatively, you can go to a counselor or professional therapist and they will be able to diagnose the issue and offer you the best solution. When you get the diagnosis, share with your family so that they know the issue you are facing. Remember, don’t lock yourself up. Sometimes in life, you can fall down holes you can’t climb out by yourself. That’s what family, friends and professional therapist are for – to help. They can’t help, however, unless you let them know you’re down there.

    I wish you all the best.

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