My father and I

Hi readers! I hope you all are fine and in a good health. This is my confession.
I live with my parents. My mother is kind and close to me. My father, well, i have been trying to accept him. It is not like i dont love him as my father but his action is unpredictable. I dont know what he is going to feel or act from one to another day. Sometimes he is in a good mood, sometimes he gets angry and shout at me and my mother for no reason or small mistakes and that makes me afraid and confused. It has been happening since i was a kid until this day. He also always put my mother in an embarrassing situation.

Even though today he has a good mood, suddenly my mind thought about him when he was angry. All the flashbacks about him being a disaster towards me and my mother would destroy the peaceful situation that we experience. Once, i suggested my mother that she needs to divorce him however she rejected the idea. Deep down in my heart i dont want her to be miserable and let alone myself. What should i do?

One Reply to “My father and I”

  1. Hey venter. I’m alright, still breathing. I hope you’re okay right now as you need this.

    Sadly, there isn’t much you can do in this situation besides protect yourself and your mother. Your mother is obviously afraid of leaving him the same way as you’re scared of his mood on a daily basis. All you can do is support yourself and your mum at this point, be strong for her.
    Maybe one day she will finally listen to you. Maybe not. All you can do is be there for her an protect her. When you turn 18, you can leave if you wish, or stay until your mother is willing to go with you.

    An inch of hope. It’s small and it’s fragile and it’s the only thing in the world worth having. We must never lose it, or sell it, or give it away. We must never let them take it from us.

    I don’t know who you are. Or whether you’re a man or a woman. I may never see you or cry with you or get drunk with you. But I love you. I hope that you escape this place. I hope that the world turns and that things get better, and that one day people have roses again. I wish I could kiss you.

    Never blame yourself for what he does or how he feels. This is his internal battle, not yours.

    Take care of your mama, she needs your love.

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