I feel empty

Im no good for anyone. For anything. Im not good at being a daughter, not good at being a sister, not good at being a friend. Not good with guys, not good at anything. Not even good at hurting myself. Never enough. And this feeling eats me alive. I keep hoping one day they ll be someone that loves me or at least sees something good at me. Im 18 and its so frustrating being an adult and not being able to do anything to change your life. I would really want to get out of my house but how can i? I dont have money, need to study university and dont know were to stay? they tell us that at 18 everything changes. And it does: to worse. I feel empty and I know that isn’t going to change ever, there s something in me that tells me im not good enough for this life.

One Reply to “I feel empty”

  1. Hey, I just want to let you know that no one is perfect. No one is good at everything and no one is bad at everything as well. I am not sure what happened to you, but you don’t have to be so critical of yourself. We are human being after all, we make mistakes and it is ok, we learn from our failures, we make progress and these are the most important things.

    I used to be like you, thinking that I am not good enough, a burden, worthless, a disgrace, etc, letting my inner critics destroy my confidence and self esteem. After some time, I started to ask myself “how much is considered good enough?” Human beings are greedy. We are never satisfied in whatever things we have, whatever things we achieve, whatever things we enjoy. We always want more. Realising this (took me quite a while), every time I tried to be mean to myself, I always remind myself that despite my imperfection and flaws, I am still wonderful and unique in my own way. I don’t have to be good in everything I do, I just have to try my best, do what is right without regret and enjoy the fruit of my labor. I may stumble along the way towards my goal, I may even fail and mess up everything, I would still give myself a pat on the back for trying and making progress and coming as far as I have. No shame in trying.

    So please don’t think that you are not good enough. You are enough just as you are. Embrace and make peace with your current self and your journey towards something new will feel more rewarding and satisfying. Good luck to you and I hope you live a happy life.

    By the way, if you ever need a song to cheer you up, I recommend you to try listening to:
    1. This is Me (Kesha) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wEJd2RyGm8Q
    2. Come Alive (Hugh Jackman) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BURBlSYPmBU
    Meaningful lyrics.

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