when i was younger i got bullied really bad, i even considered suicide but then i moved schols and things started to get better. I met the greatest person ive ever met in my whole life at this school. She is honestly the best thing that has ever happened to me. But i have 2 problems and i dont know what to do so i was hoping by sharing maybe idknow what to do. Firstly, ive never had a best friend. like when i was younger id consider everyone my bestfriend but they never really were but now that i have a best friend ive starting to feel something ive never felt before. Id do anything for her cause shje has honsetly saved me so much i love her and sometimes taht confuses me because idk if youre supposed to feel like that for your bestfriend. she also has a dying mom. and it breaks my heart it genuinly does because she doesnt desrve it at all. i dont want to bring it up because idk how to tell her taht she can talk to me about it. I cry every time she visits her in hospital. i have a constant need to look at my phone just in case i get that text. the text that says shes died. My life right now is so fragile and i wanna be able to know what to do so if anyone is reading this please help me.