Depression

My heart is heavy.
From the minute I wake up, depression is dragging me down. Like icy cold fingers trying to drown me. Forming an invisible noose round my neck. Trying to pull my lungs from my body, to stop me from breathing.
I don’t bother listening in lessons, which is not usually like me. Classmates and teachers ask me and I smile, as fake as they can get, and say that I’m tired.
I am tired. I’m tired of trying my beat to be happy. I’m tired of waking up.
I want to die. I want it so badly. I want to be happy again, and the only way to do that is death.

One Reply to “Depression”

  1. Hi my friend, I am sorry to hear that you are not feeling depressed. I wish I can be of any help to you but I am not exactly sure what I can do to make you feel better. I did some reading just now, it seems like depression is something that can be overcome with collective effort from yourself, family and professional therapist. So I guess the first thing you need to do is to share your story with your family or guardian or adult that you trust. Get them to bring you to professional therapist and seek treatment together.

    Alternatively, you can try calling the befrienders hotline, they are there to listen to your problem. You will feel much better after opening up and sharing your problems. Give it a try.

    Australia
    https://www.befrienders.org/directory?country=AU

    Brazil
    https://www.befrienders.org/directory?country=BR

    Bulgaria
    Sofia Hotline
    Hotline: 0035 9249 17 223

    Canada
    https://www.befrienders.org/directory?country=CA

    India
    https://www.befrienders.org/directory?country=IN

    Italy
    https://www.befrienders.org/directory?country=IT

    Germany
    Telefonseelsorge Deutschland
    Hotline: 0800 1110 111
    Hotline: 0800 1110 222

    Sweden
    https://www.befrienders.org/directory?country=SE

    United States of America
    https://www.befrienders.org/directory?country=US

    United Kingdom
    https://www.befrienders.org/directory?country=GB

    Other Countries
    https://www.befrienders.org/directory

    Remember, don’t lock yourself up. Sometimes in life, you can fall down holes you can’t climb out by yourself. That’s what family, friends and professional therapist are for – to help. They can’t help, however, unless you let them know you’re down there.

    Good luck friend and I will pray for your happiness always.

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