Old crush

I met my old crush on a social network after years. I have a family now, and she has a family too. I was too shy to ask her out then, and we parted ways before I could. She probably didn’t know, never realized, and now it doesn’t matter anymore, but…
After all these years, all I can think of is the blue of her eyes. I am confused, I want to tell her how much I liked them, but it wouldn’t make any difference. Or would it? I’d like to feel close to her, but not too close. I don’t want to start anything new, but I am curious. I want to know. Did she know I was in love with her? What would she say if I told her back then?
But this can be dangerous, what if she actually feels something for me? Now? I don’t want to take this risk. Just be friends? But we never were, actually.
Just let it go, and be happy of where I am now? I think it’s the best option, but it makes me sad. Time goes by, I’m getting older, and my decisions are made. No regret, but sometimes I’d like to peek into a parallel universe and see what would have happened if I had taken a different path. I had choices, and sometimes I just chose out of fear. I’ve learned from my mistakes, but is that all?

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